Secret

Secret

Why must I only be a secret with you?  Are you ashamed of me, is it something I do?
I try to never hurt you in any way, A commitment you don't want so you say.
I watched you go in and out of them tho, Always calling me back when they go.
I am good enough for you when you are lonely, A friend and lover on your nights only.
I have never meet any of your friends or family, I have asked you to come places with me for reality.
You tell me maybe you will come but you never show, To me I am just a secret for no one to know.
You text me to go to your place late at night, During the day I don't see you, I'm out of sight.
I don't want to be a secret, can't you see? I need and long more from thee.



Jennifer Lemay 

You're The Reason

You're The Reason
You're the reason my eyes sparkle so strong and true, All these emotions and feelings to me are so very new.
You're the reason that I have happiness if it could only stay, I know it's only for now because everything seems to fade away.
You have touched my life in so many wonderful & amazing ways, You showed kindness, friendship and hope in the last few days.
At night it's your voice I long & desire to hear before I close my eyes, From you I realized honesty, respect and most of all no lies.
You're the reason my world is brighter and a beautiful place, I don't have to pretend no more cause now the smile is real on my face.
In my life the roads I traveled were full of hills and I was so alone, The hatred, the pain and the evil all around me , I felt so cold as a stone.
But now I know I can get over the pain and put my past away to start fresh, Because you showed me you cared beyond the pleasure of the flesh.
You're the reason I am okay and now my feet is standing on the ground, I needed confidence , respect and friendship and in you that is what I found.
My world could shatter but if I'm in your arms I know I am okay, Baby you showed me happiness and no one can take this away.
You're the reason that I won't give up ,I will fight to find that light, For I have the will and strength from you not to ever lose my sight.
I know one day you will find that special one and you shall go your own way, As for me I will cherish the memories, the texts and laughter every day .

                                   Jen Lemay 

Love Is

Love Is
Love is wonderful in many ways, It has it's precious moments all through the days.
You feel joy and happiness all through your heart, It can be very confusing at the beginning ,at the start.
Nobody knows why or how we fall in love, But sometimes it can be as beautiful as a dove.
Love is rare and you are lucky to ever find it, Some don't and they seem so lost in a huge pit.
Sometimes in my life I don't have love and I feel lost, I use to try to find it and I didn't care the cost.
Love can't be found, in a unusual way it just appears, When love comes you will know for there will be no more fears.
People ask what love is, well my friend I'm trying to tell you, People try and listen to what I say remember it to.
There is so many ways to explain what love is, You can tell you're in love just by that special person you miss.
My dear I hope you understand just what I'm trying to say, Everyone needs love no matter what they have to pay.
Well my dearest friend that is what love is to me, That is how I feel because I fell in love with you, you see.
         Jen Lemay 

Hurting Questions

Hurting Questions
Where is my daddy, do you know? Why does my mommy always cry so?
Is it because she's all alone? Do you know, or have you always known?
I know I'm young but someone please tell me why, Why does my mommy sometimes want to die?
Why did daddy leave mommy before I was born? I want to know because my mommy is torn.
My mommy says it's because of her , is it true? Is that why my mommy is sometimes blue?
Mommy still loves my daddy I fear, Because on her cheek falls another tear.
She is hurting everyday and is in pain, To my mommy a baby I will always remain.
But I must ask these questions so I may know, How my life may just go.
   Jen Lemay 

Questions

Questions
When oceans flow, Where does the water go?
Why does the wind blow? That makes tress sway so.
Why does life hurt me? What does the day come to be?
When will answers come? How will I find some?
life has so many storms, Tunnels that love swarms.
What in the world can I do? Everything is so very blue.
I don't know what I can say, To change everything today.
    Jen Lemay 

Crying

Crying
My heart and soul is slowly dying, My eyes always seem like they are crying.
Everyone that I ever loved is gone so far away, I just want them to come back to me I pray.
Inside I feel so torn apart and so very alone, I wish everyday my heart would turn to stone.
crying that is what my eyes shall always do, My tears they will ease the pain a little too.
But at every single day that goes by, My heart, my eyes and my soul they will cry.
  Jen Lemay 

Never Mild Tears

Never Mild Tears
Never mild tears will flow down my cheek, In heaven it's you my eyes will seek.
I ask why did God have to take only you, For you were my life and now I don't know what to do.
Everyday I longed to see your smiling face, My heart is shattered and will never be able to be replaced.
Louis Goerge Dufour you were my dreams come true, You gave me happiness and love I never really knew.
I have loved you for more than a year, I can remember the times we shared as on my cheek falls a tear.
I cry all the time now that you have left this earth, I wish I would of known you since birth.
Our time together was so limited as I can see, I will always cherish every moment you spent with me.
You brought me so much happiness I don't know how to live without you, My love for you will always go on and someday I will join you to.
Now my tears flow down my cheeks praying it's you I will see, For I will never believe this is the way it was suppose to be.
I didn't even get to say good bye so I know I will see you, I miss you so damn much and my love for you is true.
Tears shall always fall now that you are so far away, But in my heart and soul you always will be here to stay.
 Jen Lemay 

A Cry For Help

A Cry For Help

I cry and cry till there is no more tears please hear my cries, I want to go and leave this cruel world for my soul slowly dies.
Die I want to , I really do, if I close my eyes forever, Everything will still remain the same, I can't go on for another day , please hear my soul can't pay.
Let me close my eyes forever for I want to die, cries is all my heart does, I want to be free to fly.
Close my eyes forever for no one loves me, Heaven is the only place for my eyes to see.   No I just can't take the pain, I can't live anymore, Help me I'm falling and I can't get up, I'm so torn.
If I close my eyes forever will anybody even care? I have to close my eyes forever for my love now I can not share.
 Jen Lemay 

Emptiness

Emptiness
Lies, our lives are full of them, Blood flows from our broken stem.
Why must we hurt and cry? Why can't we just go away and die?
Please just give me one happy day, Just hold me and don't go away.
Lies are my smile and the sparkles in my eyes , For no one really loves me to hold our ties.
I feel emptiness, loneliness and sadness, I have made my life nothing but  a mess.
I cry till there is no more tears, But what doesn't go away is all my fears.
Why can't I have just happiness for one day? Hatred is all around me a curse is in my way.
Can't I leave this lonely world behind? For happiness I may just find.
  Jen Lemay 

Lost Cries

Lost Cries
The water will flow, the sun will set, My heart over flowed with love when we met.
Your beautiful eyes sparkled like water so blue, I can't understand why God had to take you.
I love you so much with all of my heart, Without you I don't know how I can make a fresh start.
You could always put a real smile on my face, Now that you are gone I feel so lost without a trace..
My heart cries for I miss you so very much, I long for your soft and gentle touch.
I long to hear your laugh and see your beautiful eyes, I would give anything just to hear your soft cries.
Unfortunately my life will go on slowly day by day, For now we have no choice on going our separate way.
I know one day in eternity we will be together, In heaven it will be so beautiful forever .
 Written for : Chantel Michaud 
   Jen Lemay 

Time Slips By

Time Slips By 
My tears still fall around my feet, Just hoping for the day we shall meet.
As time slips by my eyes still cry, Ever since the day you said good-bye.
You were my joy and so full of glee, A beautiful baby I could ever see.
My smile will always be a lie, Until all the time slips by.
In heaven we shall be together, In eternity it shall be forever .
I shall always cry, Until time slips by .
 Written for: Chantel Colleen Pearl Michaud  ( august 1996 - August 1997) 
 Jen Lemay 

Broken Words

Broken Words
Broken words which now have no meaning, Your words to me have no right being.
You lie, you deceive , you hate , you steal, I hate you now so it is time to redeal.
You drove a sword so hot right through my heart, Now you must leave me alone so I can make anew start.
Hate you , I really now do just go so far away, For it is time I pray now that you don't stay.
Broken words were the only things you do say, So leave me now and go don't think of me another day.
Set my heart free because you and me are through, It was over along time ago that I sure knew.
Take your lies and your deceitful words away from me, So I can live my life the way I want it to be.
  Jen Lemay 

Where Are You

Where Are You 
Where are you when I close my eyes at night? In my dreams you are there holding me tight.
Where are you when I wake up screaming out your name? Baby when you are gone I'm so empty, it's not the same.
Where are you when my tears fall for my heart is in pain? You were my only sanity now I feel I'm just going insane.
Where are you when I really need you the most? You are so far away as if you are on the other side of the coast.
Where are you for I need you here with me? Are you gone forever for you I can not see?
Where are you goes through my mind day by day, Baby please come home to us for your head here to lay.
Where are you for I long and miss you so much, I need to see you and to feel your soft gentle touch.
  Jen Lemay 

Child Abuse

Child Abuse
Another day goes by, the bruises are leaving, His parents don't see it, but they are deceiving .
Another lie he is saying not really knowing why, Still more hits to his back but he mustn't cry.
For the pain gets worse if he shows his fears, But when he's all alone down falls his tears.
He thinks he must of been bad again to be hit, He feels so lost like he is in a empty pit.
He can't understand why he was even born, For all he gets is his little heart torn.
Child abuse is all around us, even if we don't see, Why can't the children be happy for that was how it was yo be.
    Jen Lemay 

Butterfly Kisses

Butterfly Kisses
Butterfly kisses so soft and sweet, Kissing you is a one in a life time treat.
You're on my mind at night and all day, But there is so many obstacles on our way.
Our butterfly kisses are always on my mind, For at night  when I close my eyes it's you I find.
In my dreams it's only you and me, But when I wake up it's you I can't see.
So butterfly kisses is all I will keep, And the rest I shall hide so dark and deep.
   Jen Lemay 

I Will

I Will
I will be there for you when you call, I will pick you back up if you should fall.
I will try to wipe away all your tears, I will be there to listen to all of your fears.
I will be the one who's  standing by your side, I will be the one who doesn't run and hide.
I will be the one who means it when I say I love you, I will be the one who shows it with a heart that is true.
I will walk the rough roads when you need me , I will be the one who never leaves you as you can see.
You are my sunshine, my laughter and my smiles, Just to see you I would walk a thousand miles.
I will cherish and love you till the end of time, If love is against the law I'm guilty as the crime .
I will always be the one who needs you, I will always be the one who will be true.
Jen Lemay 

From A Distance

From A Distance 
From a distance I watch just to see you, My heart it starts to pound when I finally do.
You probably don't even really notice me, So from a distance that is where my feelings will be.
When I look into your eyes I feel I'm in a trance, But I know in my heart it is all from a distance.
Everyday I long to see your gorgeous smile, Just to see you I would walk an extra mile.
Please don't ask me why I feel like this, But from a distance it's you I miss.
When I have feelings I will usually runaway, Exspecially when I see you don't know what to say.
I don't know why I'm telling all this to you, Because you probably don't feel the same way I do.
From a distance that is where I'll be, For it's you in all of my dreams, you see. 
                                                           Jen Lemay 

Don't Ask Me

Don't Ask Me 
As the roads travel my heart slowly dies, For everyone Around can only tell me lies.
As the water flows so cold and so blue, My heart for some reason cries over you.
I don't know what you did to make me feel this way, I know it hurts me on some certain things you say.
Don't ask me to explain just what I mean, I know you will never be mine for what I have seen.
Some days I will be upset or angry at you, Sometimes I don't know why,for I haven't got a clue.
I guess I'm slashing out at you to protect me, For I don't want to feel this way can't you see.
You don't have to do anything to get me upset, But to me you manage to put my feelings in a net.
I don't know just what to do about my feelings for you, Trust me I wish I knew exactly what I should do.
                                                                                                      Jen Lemay 

Wondering Hearts by:Jennifer Lemay

    Wondering Hearts 

Wondering hearts, are we all full of them?

Are we all crying while our blood drips from our stem?

Like a flower we slowly whither and die,

For our ears hear every single little lie.

A sword pierces our hearts as we try to love,

Wishing and praying for God to send us a white dove.

With wondering hearts who should we blame ?

Is it their hearts or is it our own hearts that we can't tame?

When we hurt to many times we turn our hearts to stone,

For no matter what we try we always seem to be alone.

Tears and pain burns our eyes night after night,

Darkness surrounds us, there is no bright light.

Soon our pain turns to hate anything and every one ,

For our wondering hearts knows that a battle , they have won.

All our love and our happiness has been cast far away,

Sadness, loneliness and emptiness now does lay.

Only someone who truly does love you will make it all go away,

Then and only then you know your heart or theirs will never stray.

                                                                   Jennifer Lemay 

Desire By Jen Lemay

Desire

Desire is burning deep down inside my lonely soul,

A fire inside my mouth just like a red hot coal.

My body sweets with so much desire as I lay asleep ,

In the morning as I awake I am aching so very deep.

The desire so strong , to strong for me just to shake,

In my dreams I call out your name for my body you must take.

My breast ache for your touch, they want to feel you,

This kind of desire I never felt before, it's all new.

I can have a lover but I know this desire he can't take away,

Only you could but you won't so I know it's here to stay.

I don't want another for it's only you that I desire,

Only you can put out this burning red hot fire.

I need, I want, I desire ,I ache and I love only truly you,

You don't need, want, desire, ache or love me so what am I to do ?

The desire inside me will burn strong like a hot flame,

For I know no other for my wild desire will they be able to tame.

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Jen Lemay

The End By Jen Lemay

The End

You can feel the distance and now all you can do is wait,
In your heart you thought he would stay for he was your soul mate.

You know the day is coming that he won't be walking through the door,
Tears fall one by one but you mustn't show all the hurting any more.

Is it time again to close your heart for the pain is way to strong to bare?
Time to run away far from here because you know that he doesn't care.

You only tried to help and love him but he could not trust you,
Did you do something wrong goes through your mind for you haven't got a clue .

No matter what you always hide your tears and fears from him ,
For now any light left in your life is flickering so really dim.

You try to change yourself for him but in the end it wasn't for anything,
You feel like you're falling in a pit only holding on by a weak string.

In the pit you hear them calling you saying come here to the very end,
To the end of your life so bitter and cold for your soul & heart will never mend.

Where you won't see him or have no more tears or any kind of fears,
Agony claws your mind, everyone is full of darkness, come to where it's clear.

He won't miss you and nobody else would ever care so end your lonely soul,
For if you stay you know your heart will always be a burning coal.

I write you but my heart is crying out all my feelings inside of me,
So if I fall to the end will I be happy , will I finally be really free ?

Jennifer Lemay .....